"Like a Bridge over Troubled Waters..."

The Way, The Truth, and The Life

I am broken....but He heals.

I am hurt...but He comforts.

I am lost...but He is The Way.

I am confused...but He brings clarity.

I don't know what's right...but He is The Truth.

I feel alone...but He never leaves my side.

I feel exhausted...but He restores me.

I feel helpless...but He is my strength.

I feel dead inside...but He is The Life.

I don't know how I got here and I don't know where I'm going. But I do know that the Lord has always been with me and the Lord will always guide me. If I keep the faith and hold on to His promises, He will never abandon me and never forsake me. He is always faithful....so Lord, I pray, that I may always be faithful. I love you Lord. You are all that I am.

He Restores my Soul

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,

3 He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Hold my Heart

"Hold my Heart" by Tenth Avenue North

How long must I pray, must I pray to You?
How long must I wait, must I wait for You?
How long 'til I see Your face, see You shining through?
I'm on my knees, begging You to notice me.
I'm on my knees, Father will You turn to me?

One tear in the driving rain,
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart

I've been so afraid, afraid to close my eyes
So much can slip away before I say goodbye.
But if there's no other way, I'm done asking why.
I'm on my knees, begging You to turn to me
I'm on my knees, Father will You run to me?

One tear in the driving rain,
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart?
One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Would You come close and hold my heart.

So many questions without answers, Your promises remain
I can't see but I'll take my chances to hear You call my name
To hear You call my name

One tear in the driving rain,
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the maker of the stars
Hear the sound of my breaking heart
One life, that's all I am
Right now I can barely stand
If You're everything You say You are
Won't You come close and hold my heart.

Hold my heart, could you hold my heart?
Hold my heart.

Pondering...

I have so much on my mind this week that I can't seem to put any of it on paper or into words. Some of my thoughts have led to questions...

1) Life is love and love is life. Right? Well, at least for me it is. My life is centered around my love for God and my love for people. No matter who I come in contact with, I ask myself how I can show them love. Some make it quite hard to love them...others, I just can't stop loving them. Where's the balance? Why is it that some people in my life make me pray and focus deep down in my soul just to find an ounce of love for them while others seem to possess more of my love than I have for myself. Is there a limit to love? That's a tough one to answer. God's love, agape, definitely has no limit. He and His love are unconditional, eternal, and long-lasting. How about love between people? Between myself and my parents, friends, co-workers...? Where does compromise and sacrifice come into play? I have come to learn that most all relationships require both of those elements. Who gives up what? Is there a point where you have given up too much?

2) Second question I have been thinking of is...who do I want to be defined as? A close friend of mine recently said to me..."you are changing, you are a completely different Lauren". That made me think. If I'm changing, do I want to be known as the person I was before or the person I am changing into? What character do I wish to have? What principles and beliefs do I wish to base my life philosophy on? What legacy do I wish to leave behind? Who do I want to be and become? Who does God want me to become?